🎢 The Next Core Memory

“Do you ever look at someone and wonder, ‘What is going on inside their head?’”

If you could peek inside our heads right now, you’d see a whole emotional headquarters running at full capacity. Joy is holding onto optimism, Sadness is reminiscing about the journey so far, Disgust is judging our snack choices, Anger is side-eyeing the entire medical process, and Fear is clutching his clipboard, reminding us of every possible thing that could go wrong.

And now, Anxiety has entered the chat.

We are just weeks away from our next implant. It’s surreal. It’s terrifying. It’s exciting. It’s every single color-coded orb of emotion rolled into one. But after four years on this journey, we are stepping into this next chapter with hope—and a little help from science.

Through all the highs and lows, we’ve learned that this process is not for the faint of heart. If there was a manual for how to build a family this way, it would be written in invisible ink with a postscript that says, “Haha, good luck!”

But here’s what we do know:

💛 We’ve met some incredible people along the way.

💛 The love and support from our people (you!) has kept us going.

💛 This journey has tested every ounce of our patience, but we are still here.

And now, we’re making a small but significant change—this time, we’re leaning into our carrier’s natural cycle. This adjustment feels right, and we’re hopeful it will bring the best possible outcome.

Crying helps me slow down and obsess over the weight of life’s problems.

Let’s be honest: this road has not been easy. There have been moments of heartbreak, frustration, and those nights where Sadness just needed to hold onto a core memory and cry it out.

And yet, we’ve also had so much Joy. The kind that comes from tiny victories, unwavering support, and the reminder that we are moving forward—no matter how long it takes.

Now, we’re here, standing at the next threshold, holding on to hope.

What if we mess it up? What if we make the wrong choice?

Oh, hi Anxiety. 😅

We’d love to say we’re calm, cool, and collected, but that would be a total lie. Every big step forward comes with a swirl of emotions:

• Excitement – We are so close!

• Trepidation – What if it doesn’t work?

• Exhaustion – Can someone just fast-forward to the part where we hold our baby?

• Gratitude – For every person thinking of us, sending prayers, and keeping us in their hearts.

If we’ve learned anything from Anxiety’s addition to the Inside Out crew, it’s that worrying is just our brain trying to protect us from the unknown. But you know what? We’re doing this anyway.

At the heart of this journey is a simple but powerful truth: we are not giving up. We’ve wished, we’ve waited, we’ve worked through every challenge that’s come our way.

And now, we’re asking once again:

If you have any extra thoughts, prayers, positive vibes, or just a good ol’ fashioned fist bump of encouragement, we’d love for you to send them our way.

We don’t know exactly what’s ahead, but we do know this: hope is still here.

The countdown is on. We’ll see where this next step takes us.

✨ Thank you for believing with us. ✨